Its not just being without a job, its the searching of a job that is so frustrating and hard to deal with. The unknown. Will it be like this for a year again. Sigh. Wish I didnt have my bills to deal with. Its all my fault I guess. Hope God will bless me soon. Im running out of energy.
Tuesday, April 24, 2018
Monday, April 23, 2018
Sunday, April 22, 2018
right now i am super worried abt how I will manage to survive til I get a job. I will be able to pay my bills but I wont have anything or almsot nothing left for food and busrides.... FUCK!!! 😩😣😢
Do you recognise that?
Read This , An article about stress about money
Saturday, April 21, 2018
Wednesday, April 18, 2018
Well I wont get anything left after my bills are paid til I get a job. So that means I gotta make some extra money. I have put up some ads on swedish version of ebay. Its like people except everything to be super cheap. I mean come on!? Cant sell everything for nothing just because its on there...pfff cheap bastards..
I put 10 bucks on gamble site. its mostly bingo. I found a slot machine i fell in love with. I did win like 100 bucks back! right now i have used the other 100. I might put some money back in there again... No wonder ppl do this. Its pretty fun too. 😄 I wont gamble all my money away. That wont happen, 😏
You know what? I dont like going to a normal job. If I could I would try to make money all on my own. Be my own boss. Is it possible?? nowadays???
Tuesday, April 17, 2018
Feel like a giant blob , A big potato today. I dont think i can eat today. Matter of fact. I think im not even hungry?? Thats a weird word to say. Im always hungry. Plus my mom is "trying" to help me. Motivate me. She just keep reminding me im fat. Makes me feel alooot worse. 😪 Got no plans for today. Maybe I will go outside.
Sunday, April 15, 2018
Just as grey as the weather has been thats how my mood has been today. Grey. Empty, Sad, Alone
My man called last night but he always calls so late. like around 11.30ish pm and 12.30 Am. Doesnt he know I sleep at that time?? Ugh. And he just talks about money most of the time.... Its just started to annoy me. But maybe he is going through it too. Who knows? 😕😪😩😭